-sHuwEn-

2008-02-06T07:00:00.000-08:00

IF ONLY our life's was in control .

2008-02-06T06:20:00.000-08:00

like my new song ? sweeney todd =)

start saving stop spending

2008-02-04T06:52:00.000-08:00

STOP ME ! oh my gosh . guess what ? these few days , i have been spending money like frecking faster then ever . i don't know why maybe i'm on the verge of a psycho breakdown or something but shopping destresses right ? althought i am not too sure what the hell i'm stressing over . so anyways it has come to my attention that my 20 dollars withdrawal today . SCREAMS! 40 bucks was all i have left out of the 500 paycheck . so i've decided i am going to start saving and work harder to earn more money.

so anyways today i had like a busy morning . haha . i left the house at 0830am then headed to the interchange and took bus 27 to meet up with shiwei . intially the plan was to meet her at the bus stop opposite her house but she was late for work so i waited in the bus and she boarded although it was sort of crowded but i still manage to hand her the money as she passed me the tee =) hees . then i alighted the next stop and took the lrt then mrt and headed over to outram for my dental appointment =) guess what if things goes well i could most probably be able to take off my braces next month =) *cheers ! isn't it great or what . hees . although come to think about it i would miss having my braces .. shinny colourful teeth haha . so after that long appointment i headed over down to compasspoint to meet up with siti as we seek out on our new advantures of NPARKS. lols speaking of which tomorrow i have to go over to ml . tsktsk ! tiresome . by the way something sad happened today , my watch is facing some health problem . sigh! got to bring it to the doctor's tomorrow . sigh ! hope it feels better .

2008-01-29T21:14:00.000-08:00

awwww... i just watched finish why why love . it's so sad . well today was all right, i slack at home . after so many outing these few days it feels good to finally rest at home. haha . so anyway yesterday i met up with siti and asyura we took the mrt , headed to ml then we met with yew soon and he introduce us to a new project.after that we took the mrt and head on over to vivocity.i went to watch 27 dresses with both my best girl friends =) although i was very tired but i had fun, remember the popcorn parade ... lols , i didn't regret going out with you guys =) ahaha . well actually i wanted to go watch sweeney todds but it has not start showing yet and i just realise then that it was a m18 show hence i can't watch . BOOHOO ! what a pity . after the movie we went to new urban male visit my five years and counting best friend shaun ! haha . he is like my secret box , i trust him . thanks for listening to my whining shuan =) ahaha and of cause not to forget about my two best girlfriend ... you guys mean the world to me . i wonder how would things turn out when we all move on to polytechnic. i would definitely miss all of you all my classmates each and everyone of you has made a difference in my life . you have all left a foot print in my heart and i promise i would never forget any of you...

here are my choice of courses ...

choice 1 : temasek polytechnic -visual communication

choice 2 : nanyang polytechnic -visual communication

choice 3 : temasek polytechnic -interactive media design

choice 4 : temasek polytechnic -psychology studies

choice 5 : temasek polytechnic -interactive media technology

choice 6 : temasek polytechnic -interactive media informatics

choice 7 : ngee ann polytechnic -early childhood education

choice 8 : temasek polytechnic -leisure and resort management

2008-01-28T07:06:00.001-08:00

please teach me how to make new friends !

updates on my happenings =)

2008-01-28T05:12:00.000-08:00

picture of the day =)
that's the movie i want to catch =)

oh my god ! currently feeling so tired . haha it feels like it's been ages since i posted haha pardon me for my lazyness. mmm.. anyways about the new job , "I QUIT " i have never felt so pissed with the people . the boss was fine i just didn't like the people i had to work with =s in the end i quit the next day.

so anyways today is his birthday , i wished him . i wonder how does he feels ? or maybe many other people wish him as well.

well today i got up early , went to meet with asyura and siti unforunately asyura had something on and could not make it . so siti and i went to marina instead . i had fun ,haha . i brought three tops =) then after that i head home . hees today i went to swimming althought it was tiring but it was fun =) sigh. real tired now but tomorrow have to go back office . sometimes , people just don't understand me.

oh right . before i go here are my results for the o's =)

english language three

mothertongue four[merit]

mathematics six

combine science three

combine humanities three

design and technology two

2008-01-21T23:47:00.000-08:00

i am worried . i am scared . it's uncertain . i might not make it ...

2008-01-20T01:25:00.000-08:00

good afternoon people . mmm...this morning was quite unexpected hees. well ,the person from the casual wear shop called, so i think i might have a job =) *cheers! i am so bored right now . the o level results are coming out soon . my brain is filled with thoughts you can't even imagine , i'm truly scared and worried. my future remains an unknown .

today i read a friend's post , what he wrote made sense . i am ok now =) i will get myself together and jiayou for the future! true love will come when you least expect it *winks .

2008-01-19T04:43:00.000-08:00

hey there stranger . well , today was not too bad. i went to meet with siti and asyura in the morning . haha coincidentally i saw robbin and janice . anyways took bus 27 and headed to tampines , hell ya the place where the cats roam around freely and sometimes if you pay more attention to them they look as though they were communicating . yes that's right , you heard me they were communicating . CREEPY aint it . lols . oh oh ... guess what ? *smiles . i got a reply from a casual wear shop , maybe i'll be able to get the job .the only problem would be how to break the news to my two best friends =s mmm... i think i should see how first right ? ahhaha it's not like i got the job already. oh by the way i am going to get my pink psp slim on wednesday hurray ! i cannot wait . haha i'm going to go on my shopping spree on monday then go get my psp on wednesday yes yes next week would be a busy week haha . not to mention the results might be out too =) anyways gtg bye

be my thunder .

2008-01-18T06:13:00.000-08:00

today woke up quite late around 11am. then daddy called he say he help me get the psp , hurray!!! i was touch by my dad , he made a point to call just to tell me that even when he was overseas .daddy i love you everyday and twice on sunday =) lols . and of cause same goes to each and everyone in my family =) then after that i went out was suppose to meet nanthiniy at hougangmall 12.30pm but i loss track of time and was late.however nanthiniy was late too ,in fact she came later then me !!! LATE QUEEN ! then we headed over to mac to have our lunch ,chat about the latest happenings actually it was me doing all the major complaining lols but that's what friends are for right ? no ? haha . anyways after that we walked around brought some stuff then bus down to miss toh house for our violin lessons . i am happy that i manage to learn so many new things today , i now know how to read musical notes . yes , that's very good for someone who has no music background. i now officially know how to play twinkle twinkle little stars by heart . "cheers to me !"my next aim is to learn another new song the next lesson . currently my neck is achinG but all is WORTH .

your impact on me ...

i want to get to know you but you distance yourself away . i want to talk to you but you seem busy all the time . i want to see you but fears holds me back . i want to tell you all that i was feeling but i didn't want to risk it . there were many hopes in the beginning but now it seems that everything is just fading away ,like how the sea washes the words written in the sand . the feelings i once had was like the rainbow slowly appearing in the clouds after a heavy downpour , it was that beautiful but now all it has become is disappointment and sadness . hopeless as to what might happen and helpless as to what might end . sigh! rip my heart out , why don't you ?

last day of self pity .

2008-01-17T06:48:00.000-08:00

all right i'll admit it . i , jeanette goh shu wen have a sad life in fact no life at all . sorry friend today was not really a good day to go out shopping with me . forgive me for my mood swing , because i had to wait for you 45minutes hence made me even more moody you should know me right i hate waiting for people . not to mention i am still kind of heartbroken about .. you know who .sigh! anyways i have decided not to pin anymore hopes on him anymore... all right all right fine you got me , i shall wait. till the end of this week if he does not text then i shall put an end to this madness.sigh! i really wish to go look for a job at anywhere just as long as it pays well and not so far .. i want to go get my psp slim , i have been thinking about getting it for a long time and i feel that the time is now .hees.i want a red one but unfortunately there isn't any . mmm , so i was thinking of getting the rose pink one but a bit colour clashing considering i already have a pink phone. ahhaha. maybe i should try asking bodyshop , haha i love that place .

GO GREEN ! hees .

i would not drown myself in self pity anymore .i promise that tomorrow will be a different jeanette . GOGOGO =) all rightly now . got to go catch my beauty sleep =) see you around *winks

need a life

2008-01-16T04:36:00.000-08:00

well, today was the same as any old day nothing special happened . i woke up at 11 then get ready to go out . then i took the bus down to hougang mall , was suppose to meet nanthiniy at 1pm but then i received a text from her saying she just woke up so meet at 1.30pm instead but too late i was already at the busstop . so i just went ahead and took the bus , i reached there at 1pm . so i went around to walk hougang mall alone . yes. i realise i am quite a loner but it's all right , i am used to it =) anyways i decided to go bodyshop and ended up buying a tons of stuff and join their membership. yea so anybody needs a 10% when they enter bodyshop can come look for me =) hees . the lady in the shop was really nice it was just like that we were friends =) was glad i met her , next time i need to go bodyshop i will definitely go there . *winks . ahh ! tomorrow cannot spend too much money . i have got to save up =) yes ! my sister remembered to bind my violin notes =) =)=) totally cool . so anyways i got to go now, got to surrender the computer to my sister. darn it! i shouldn't have spoil her computer . takecare all rights .

2008-01-15T05:39:00.000-08:00

how does one becomes remembered to neglected in one day ...

i am very HAPPY!

2008-01-14T04:12:00.000-08:00

all right . i am going to make a confession . well ...actually the main reason why i post is because i like to talk to myself , it give me time to do some self reflection somehow i feel that keeping a blog allows me to understand myself better . it helps me remember the things i have forgotten , be it silly , sweet , bitter , sad , all of it . the feelings and memories which are kept close to my heart =) although i'll admit that i don't usually post all of my most inner feeling and thoughts but i promise that whatever that i post here is as honest as it can get =)

i am happy i am happy i am happy i am happy yes! i am so happy that no amount of words can describe it but if i have to choose i'll definitely grab a whole bunch of words from the dictionary.

i am so happy that he remembered me . it feels really good to be remember ,to be thought of , i am so glad. he made my day =) *smiles . i want this to be never ending ...

mmm... today i woke up late , was suppose to meet asyura and siti at ten but reached there at around ten -thirty ?_? real sorry about that i didn't mean it . then we took the mrt and headed over to ML hees. after submitting the surveys we collected our very first pay check =) yes. that's right although it was only half the pay but it's better then nothing right ? hees =) then after that we headed over to compasspoint to have our lunch. that was when i saw it in my phone IT"S HIM ! i was so happy i almost went crazy =) hees .

so anyways i just heard from a friend , the o levels results are going to be out soon . well , i'm not too sure what i would do if i didn't get the results that i aim for . i am not sure how i am going to face everyone , my parents , my siblings , my friends , my relative , everyone . sigh! i am really worried . sometime i think i really cannot take it , the stress this society puts on everyone i really wonder how people are able to cope . all rightly then i will end here , takecare ! haha off

i go , i'm going to paint my nails baby pink . hees . pretty in pink =)

if we were a fairytale story , i would not want an ending because true love never ends =)

i want you to want me

2008-01-12T20:32:00.000-08:00

oh man . i not sure what i should be thinking it like , "aarrgghh!" i so messed up . i don't know what to do anymore. i don't know what to think anymore ...
currently i feeling like this old retro pop song
I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
I�d love you to love me.
I�m beggin� you to beg me.
I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
I�d love you to love me.
I�ll shine up the old brown shoes, put on a brand-new shirt.
I�ll get home early from work if you say that you love me.
Didn�t i, didn�t i, didn�t I see you cryin�?
Oh, didn�t i, didn�t i, didn�t I see you cryin�?
Feelin� all alone without a friend, you know you feel like dyin�.
Oh, didn�t i, didn�t i, didn�t I see you cryin�?
I want you to want me.I
need you to need me.
I�d love you to love me.
I�m beggin� you to beg me.
I�ll shine up the old brown shoes, put on a brand-new shirt.
I�ll get home early from work if you say that you love me.
Didn�t i, didn�t i, didn�t I see you cryin�?
Oh, didn�t i, didn�t i, didn�t I see you cryin�?
Feelin� all alone without a friend, you know you feel like dyin�.
Oh, didn�t i, didn�t i, didn�t I see you cryin�?
Feelin� all alone without a friend, you know you feel like dyin�.
Oh, didn�t i, didn�t i, didn�t I see you cryin�?
I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
I�d love you to love me.
I�m beggin� you to beg me.
I want you to want me.
I want you to want me.
I want you to want me.
I want you to want me.

he text me =)

2008-01-12T01:56:00.000-08:00

he text. YES! that's right can you believe it, he actually text me first . YES YES YES !!! he text me text me lalala. hees. woo hoo!!! *smiling =) am currently on cloud nine . ok i'll take this as a good sign jiayou bah jeanette =) =) =) i'll definitely have a great day ahead =) wee ...

alrights . let's begin with today ,"phew!" what a relief . currently feeling dry and warm in the comfort of my own home. there was a sudden heavy downpour today and i got caught in the rain.T-T but i guess my two friends had it worst . lols . anyways i helped an old blind man across the overhead bridge today =) since i was on the way too and i was worried that he might slip and fall hence i decided to help him . at first i thought that it was going to be really weird but after awhile when we were already halfway there the weirdness kind of disappear in fact i felt glad cause i help somebody today =) hees .

yawn! alrightly i am feeling kind of tired already mmm... going to take a short nap may online later on *winks =)

bored !!!

2008-01-11T06:37:00.000-08:00

yes , today i actually woke up . it was 12 in the afternoon , must say it was quite early considering i didn't set an alarm =) haha. well today was awfully boring, i rot at home . it's been three day straight since i left the house . yes, seriously i have got no life .thank god , i'm getting out of the house tomorrow "phew! " what a relief.

thoughts for the day ...

sometimes i wonder which is actually more frightening , is it the thought of someone going to leave you or is it the the thought of being alone that is scary. well i'm not sure either .haha. anyways i'm not sure what to blog today so i guess this is it then .

Lets101 Quizzes - Fun quizzes for blog & myspace

2008-01-10T07:37:00.001-08:00

Lets101 - Online Dating

i'm stuck , feeling so hopelessly lost in this life

2008-01-10T06:22:00.000-08:00

alright . right now i'm thinking , " what the hell should i do " it's like for the first time i'm stuck actually it's more like because it's the first time i'm doing this i don't know what the hell i'm doing . tsktsk ! i know , it's like i'm going crazy .ahhh !!! or should i say man crazy urghhh !! maybe i should just leave it like what everyone is just telling me . i mean if he really wants to contact me or should i say be my friend he would have text me all ready right ? mmm ... maybe i have done too much , after all like what my friend said girls dont take initiative.. but i was like the dumb one who went to do it . now i only have myself to blame . really not sure what to do now , feeling hopelessly lost . sigh!

well anyways today was wasted . i'm currently feeling damn unemployed , someone please offer me a job before i die of boredom . anyways today i stayed at home the whole day, i woke up at around 1 going to 2 . had a headache and i think it was because i slept for too long , weird right ? yea i know . it's jeanette , i'm a weird person . people around me BEWARE ! lols. ha. i was just kidding so anyway i watched abit of the television then practiced my bowing for the violin now my neck is hurting like crazy ok maybe just abit . haha. mmm.. i miss my friends , i wonder if they miss me too . it's been a long time since i met up with them i wonder how are they doing ??? well i guess that's just life huh ? it does not always go the way you want it to in fact it just goes the opposite , just when you thought things were great .moving in the direction you want it to , it turns out just wrong, just wrong . sigh!

2008-01-08T22:17:00.000-08:00

dear dairy lols . funny . i mean who starts a post in their blog with dear diary anymore haha. mmm. alrights lets start with what happen on yesterday . well, it was quite boring i mean woke up like real real early at around 8 or 9 am ? i guess i was not really sure ,then i hurried to the bathroom to get ready . then took the bus to hougang interchange and then a train heading down to vivo.it was a long journey there though so i then decided to read this interesting book called five people you meet in heaven . i mean i read it before but i did not really get what the whole story line was about , hell ya ! that book is deep it really makes you think . so anyway i decided to re read it and i think i'm beginning to understand what the book is trying to say . mmm.. yea ! oh i gave up the job offering at x square it's kind of a pity though i mean it's 1k a month but no use rejecting right ? i mean it's not going to come back. well maybe i'm going to just keep looking around , if i'm lucky i mean who know's right ? [raising my eyebrows ] haha.

yesterday something great happened =) i actually picked up all the courage i had within me and press the send button and things actually went well =) wee !!! i can't shake off the feeling , hees am still smiling myself silly right now . =)

mmm... as for today , my dad went overseas this morning on a business trip eerr other then that nothing much is going to happen i think . haha. cause i'm going to to stay home , it's raining . BBbbrrRR...it's cold .

alrightly , catch up with you later *winks

i got new shoes =)

2008-01-06T06:41:00.000-08:00

the friends i treasure the most =)
siti, asyura ,jeanette

hey there stranger =) haha. well today was not bad , i brought new shoes =) totally satisfied . mmm...the day begin at compasspoint , hees we all were late but thank god i wasn't the last =) anyways after meeting, we went to had our breakfast . the actual plan was to go hougang ave 8 that area for the surveys however we realise we needed the street directory for it unforunatly none of us bought it with us.uhoh! in the end we decided to cover the anchorvale. mmm..but i didn't manage to get any surveys =( it was a waste of time ... then around four , siti and i headed over to far east there we wanted to get the converse shoe from there but they didn't have my size hence we went to tampines instead . thank god there was my size =) i totally in love my new shoes . hees . current want : a bag =)

mmm.. he is online , should i chat ? probably not i guess =( i don't want to be an irritating person . sigh!

the song that we love =)

2008-01-06T06:30:00.000-08:00

song : thunder
by boys like girls.

Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didnt want to go, whoa
Today in the blink of an eye
Im holding on to something and I do not know why I tried
I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyesI want a simple explanation; what Im feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder
Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I dont know, whoa
Today Im on my own
I cant move a muscle and I cant pick up the phone, I dont know
And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside, just to see if I can breatheI gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I saidYour eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rainAnd bring on the thunderYeah
Im walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think Ill make it out but you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain
Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didnt want to go, whoa
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rainAnd bring on the thunder
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rainOh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder

i love my violin =)

2008-01-04T06:01:00.000-08:00

hello there. yes it's me again =) oh don't mind me i just feel like being irritating =) hees. yes yes let's talk about today. well well , i must say that today i had quite a tight schedule . i woke up real early in the morning, was suppose to meet my two loveable friends siti and asyura at 0930am however due to the wrong estimation of time i ended up there at 0900am [timing stated are all plus minus] therefore i waited in the station alone for them. was really bored at that point of time, silly thoughts entered my brain yesterday brought a smile to my face =) [* still smiling ]anyways we headed down to ML and handed in our surveys to yew soon . argh !!! i want to hurry get my pay ... HURRY =) so then after that we took a mrt down to hougangmall , we went to eat long john silver but siti didn't join us [ she had a date with boyfriend =) ] haha . mmm... then after that asyura and i separated and i headed over to monfort that area to meet up with nanthiny . [ yes, i have been seeing her for three days straight.] then we proceed to miss toh house and started our violin lesson =) then we went to tampines i accompany nanthiniy to get her pay " where's mine ??" haha. kidding =) so anyway after that we finally parted and head home . i was really tired today , "thankgod!" i slept awhile this afternoon now i'm feeling kind of awake =) haha . not really sure what to do now =S
well i was sort of disappointed today . cause originally i thought my sister could bring home beanie b [ the name i gave the dog =)] but in the end my dad said that he felt that we weren't responsible enough ."ouch!'" anyways he said that he would think about it but i think it would most probably be a no =( so we'll only know if we can adopt beanie b next week . well i'll keep you inform . so i guess that should be all for today , keep in touch for tomorrow =)

the first post of the year =)

2008-01-03T05:46:00.000-08:00

hey there stranger , hees . gosh! it's been ages since i last posted . well so sorry cause my computer was attacked by a virus of some sort... argh ! thank god my computer doctor was able to fix it =) hence explain why i was able to online today =) hees. anyways i delete my other blog [*smiling ] cause i wanted to start anew . well ,so far i don't think i have any thing to complain but i can't assure in the future it would be the same =) haha .

mmm. alright lets start with today i went to meet with nanthiniy at compasspoint but like usual she was late, only this time i waited for 30 minutes . yes , she is now officially the queen of late . after which we took the mrt and headed down to toa payoh for an interview which was supposedly there . we search the freaking place for like 30 minutes or so but we gave up shortly after and we ended up eating subway =) then we took the mrt headed to dobby ghot to meet with shiwei then we went random walking in ps. then as i crossed this particular shop suddenly i saw a familiar face, it was one of nanthiniy's and shiwei's friend then he started to wave at us and we ended up going for a walk in interview there. well, hope they will call us =) BBEeecauseee ... i need a jobbbbb!!!

alright, i am currently so into this song . it's damn nice , if you have the time please do listen. i'll upload the song for your ears when i have the time alrightly now enjoy the lyrics =)

song title : you'll be safe here .
by : rivermaya.

Nobody knowsJust why we're here

Could it be fateOr random circumstance

At the right placeAt the right time

Two roads intertwineAnd if the universe conspired

To meld our lives

To make us

Fuel and fire

Then knowWhere ever you will beSo too shall i be

Chorus:Close your eyesDry your tears'coz when nothing seems clear

You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight

Of your doubts and fears

Weary heart

You'll be safe here

Remember how we laughedUntil we cried

At the most stupid things

Like we were so high

But love was all that we were on

We belongAnd though the world wouldNever understand

This unlikely unionAnd why it still stands

Someday we will be set free.Pray and believe

Chorus:When the light disappears

And when this world's insincere

You'll be safe here

When nobody hears you screamI'll scream with you

You'll be safe here

Save your eyesFrom your tears

When everything's unclear

You'll be safe here

From the sheer weightOf your doubts and fearsWounded heart

When the light disappears

And when this world's insincere

You'll be safe here

When nobody hears you screamI'll scream with you

You'll be safe hereIn my armsThrough the long cold nightSleep tight

You'll be safe here

When no one understandsI'll believeYou'll be safe,You'll be safeYou'll be safe here

Put your heart in my hands

You'll be safe here

*-sHuwEn-*

start saving stop spending

updates on my happenings =)

be my thunder .

last day of self pity .

need a life

i am very HAPPY!

i want you to want me

he text me =)

bored !!!

i'm stuck , feeling so hopelessly lost in this life

i got new shoes =)

the song that we love =)

i love my violin =)

the first post of the year =)

-sHuwEn-